october

Dear Heart,

Last Tuesday, I lost my mom.

The person I held closest to my heart since birth was taken away from me so suddenly I have barely had the time to process that she is gone. The fragility of life has introduced itself as a major personal scarcity leaving me feeling half empty.

Before my mother embarked on the journey to her afterlife, her mother took her by the hand and led her to the calm and comforting chambers of endless love.

The beautiful leaves of red, orange, yellow, and brown have provided me with the warmth and comforting support of the fall harvest. The stagnancy of time has continued once again in the era of the meteorological season of autumn.

My father has become my closest family in which I trust with all of my discomforting thoughts and unwelcoming anxieties. I envy his strength and his ability to continue forward in a time of stagnancy.

I crave now more than ever to venture outwards to new lands to spread my mother’s ashes as she wished from the beginning. She deserves to see the beauty and the depth of the world.

From the underground of the deepest part of my heart, I know I must pursue solidity and support for the vulnerable part of myself. All of the lessons and experiences my mother had borne along with me have conceived the courage to lead me to the conclusion of what I must do.

I must never stop creating and always continue smiling. I must remain grateful and be filled with excitement upon new experiences. I must never stop loving and never stop giving to the people who witness my weaknesses and accept me for who I am. I must always reflect buoyant emotions in devotion to compassion, sympathy, and affection.

With Love,

Corissa